These Crazy Days of 2020

Just for the record, I have done a little indulging in conspiracy theories, on a few different topics.  And I shall do so again. This time about politics. Some observations and some speculation.

First, there's an interesting date for just 2020. Repeating numbers in the year only happens once a century. What was going to happen this century? 

Second, a virus that turned into a pandemic, then race riots and BLM and Antifa. The virus are separate incidences from the riots, BLM and Antifa. 

The virus outbreak could not be helped. Viruses do things like that, breakout at inconvenient times, sickening most, and killing some. 

The thing that puzzles me though, is the police brutality, especially against blacks. Now there is so much video coverage of these incidences, why do it again and again? It doesn't make sense, it's careless and stupid. Do they not care that much? Or are these situations set up to justify the riots and the ensuing destruction? Why? Is it a distraction from something else? Or to make Trump look bad so Biden can win in the fall?

In the midst of all this I did see a few interesting headlines, briefly. One was about Hillary Clinton losing an appeal and having to testify. Another was about how Antifa are hard-core Marxists, wanting to tear the country down and rebuild it. Rebuild it into what, a Marxist utopia? How will it be any different than attempts in the past? We won't know until we get there and by then it will be too late.

About Hillary; how much does she not want to testify. Since I only saw a headline, I don't what she'll be asked to testify about. Could it be her years in the state department? Could it lead to questions about things pertaining to what was known as Pizza-gate? Bill was associated with Jeffery Epstein on the Lolita Express. 

Will justice be found in the midst of a pandemic and race riots?

Changing Tides

I have been a republican all of my voting life. The philosophy of the party has made sense to me more than the democrat side. For a  while, I was an evangelical and more conservative, listening to Rush Limbaugh and conservative talk radio. I believed in the "cause" more than ever. Liberals were an obvious threat to the American way of life and had to be stopped. It seemed a common-sense no brainer and for the time being, liberalism seemed to be held at bay. There was the Clinton administration, it had its issues. But George W. Bush was going to set us right again. Unfortunately, it took 9/11 to rally the troops, Washington seemed to pull together for a while and stand against a common threat.

Time passed. Our involvement in the middle east became "normal" after we invaded Iraq. In  2005-6 our family left our evangelical church. I found myself having to rethink my outlook on life, my 'moral compass' and what was really important to me apart from what evangelicalism said. What am I by myself? What matters to me? What do I care about?

It took me a while, I began to figure out that I could exist by myself and realize what mattered to me apart from a religious organization. For a while, it was terrifying, being alone, and having to figure this all out on your own.  Some things I knew and some I didn't. But after a while, I found a balance. At least one that worked for me.

Barak Obama's presidency reminded me I was still basically conservative. I would listen to Rush Limbaugh and watch fox news from time to time just to keep up. I was finding my appetite for political things was becoming limited. All the talk and fretting was wearisome, I had to get away more and more.

When the 2016 election came I couldn't believe the choice we had, two of the worst people to run for president. I could not vote for either candidate, and I didn't. I, like a lot of other people, thought H was going to win and that'd be that. But D won, to my surprise and dismay. Since then, it has been four years of disbelief, day by day. 

I am tempted to vote democratic just to get D out of office. But when my annoyance about him gets to the level of hatred, I stop and think that all politicians are prone to corruption. Basically, when I hear about the bad things that D does as a republican, the democrats have their own version of it too. The devil you know vs the devil you don't doesn't apply. They're both devils and "buyers remorse" is built-in. Why bother voting any more. What's the point?

So that's where I'm at right now.